May. 8th, 2006

phoebe_halliwell: (Need To Be Loved : Xxmainsey)
Phoebe closed her eyes as she thought about so many things.

Perceptions.

She could name many wrong perceptions that people had of her... or still do have.

Prue perceived her as being a slacker and irresponsible for most of her life. It wasn't until two years before her death that Prue's perceptions about her changed.

She wasn't sure how Piper perceived her. growing up, it had been Piper who was often the buffer between her and Prue. Did her older sister ever just have the perception that she was just a troublemaker? How did Piper perceive her now that they were adults and Charmed Ones? She knew that her sister loved her and was proud of everything she had done... but how did she perceive her?

Cole...

She and Cole had come a long way since... well, since everything. She had helped her sisters vanquish him...but he had come back. He had come back to her. He loved her and for some reason, even after she had helped to send him to the Wastelands, he had still come back to her... come back for her.

How did Cole perceive her?

He loved her. He believed in her. He wanted her.

Trying to figure out other people's perceptions was hard to do.


Muse: Phoebe Halliwell
Fandom: Misc TV; "Charmed"
Words: 220
phoebe_halliwell: (Phoebe Can't Talk : Supernaturalhel)
I wanted to be a princess. That Never happened. But hey, I was a Queen for a few months.

For as long as I could remember, as a child, the one main focus of my attention was finding our dad and bringing him back home to us. In my childish mind, I got the idea that if we could bring Daddy home, then her would be able to bring Mommy back. After all, that's what Daddys did. They made sure Mommys and their daughters were all together in their house.

Give me a break, I was a child who never knew her mother and her father was gone.

As a child there were so many ambitions I had. I was going to be a super hero and save people in need. I was going to be on TV. I was going to be the best wife to my husband when I got married. I was going to be someone who did things to make everyone around her happy. I was going to be the person that everyone around her needed and wanted to be there.

I was going to be the perfect sister, the perfect friend, the perfect wife and the perfect mother.

I was going to find the perfect guy and everyone around us was going to be happy for me because he was so perfect.

Well, I found the perfect man for me... the part about everyone being happy for me is still being worked on.

However, I am very determined.

My current ambition? Getting my family and my husband lover fiance(?) to at least make a tentative peace between them and begin working things out.

No one ever said I set out on easy ambitions.


Muse: Phoebe Halliwell
Fandom: Misc TV; "Charmed"
Words: 212
phoebe_halliwell: (Broken Smile : starrygirl604)
[[OOC: This is set long before any current events that we have played out in T_M. This takes place after the Charmed Season Four Episode "Long Live The Queen".]]


Phoebe lay curled on the bed, clutching the long jacket tightly to her as she sobbed into the pillow. She felt like she had been crying for days and she was certain that she would cry for several more days.

Cole...

Her beloved was gone. She and her sisters had been forced to vanquish the Source. Unfortunately, the Source had taken up residence inside Cole, so when they vanquished him, Cole disappeared too.

She felt like she had been torn apart and then the two halves of her had been shredded.

She understood that she and her sisters had had no choice, but she still felt like she had betrayed Cole. However, there was no way she could have just stayed in that bathroom and let the Source force Cole to kill her sisters.

The Source, NOT Cole...

Cole, her Cole, would never have allowed the Seer to poison her and turn their baby completely evil. Cole would never have hurt her or tried to kill her sisters...

The Source did all of those things, and she was to blame. She had destroyed the one person who was going to free Cole from the Source and she had brought all of this to pass.

And now... Cole was gone.

She had helped to destroy the Source... but in doing so, they had destroyed Cole as well.

"Cole..." she sobbed into his jacket that she was still holding tightly to her.

She couldn't help but to call out to him, even though she knew he was gone and couldn't hear her. Part of her hoped that wherever he had been banished to, that his soul could feel the pain in regret that was filling her own soul.

"Cole... I'm sorry. I'm so sorry..."

Phoebe couldn't stop replaying that scene over and over in her mind. Her kissing him one last time. The look in his eyes when he realized what she was going to do. The realization of betrayal in his voice when he said her name. The look on his face as Paige and Piper held her up and she recited the vanquishing spell with them. He said he still loved her even as she was helping to destroy him.

She would never forget the look on his face or the sound of his voice as it happened... It was going to haunt her for the rest of her life... and maybe beyond that, too.

The one that got away? More like the one who was vanquished away.




Muse: Phoebe Halliwell
Fandom: Misc TV; "Charmed"
Words: 424

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